i can see the stars all the way from here.

songs of the week!:
- Centrefield - John Fogerty
- Love on Top - Beyonce
- Drove Me Wild - Tegan & Sara
- Teleport 2 Me, Jamie - Kid Cudi
- Say You Love Me - Fleetwood Mac
- New Slang - The Shins
- Good For You - Icona Pop
- Tell It Like It Is - Billy Joe Royal
- A Team - Ed Sheeran
- Something About The Way You Look Tonight - Elton John
- The Funeral - Band of Horses

PS: how attractive is Beyonce? Seriously. I'm not kidding.

x J

you are important.

You Are Important

"You apologize for things which are not your fault, even for things which hurt no one. You will bump into a table and mutter that you are sorry to have hurt it, you will excuse yourself. If you happened to cross a stream of particularly rude passerby, you would hold the door open for hours on end, never entering the building yourself. There is a part of you which seems embarrassed to take up space, as though you don’t deserve the things you touch, the air you breathe, the chairs you sit on. You feel as though there is always a way to be more accommodating, less of an intrusion. But you are not intruding, you know. You never are."

Is this article about me?

Yeah, I think it might be. 

Watching Parks & Rec, feeling the weight of work and life and everything on me. But, you know, I have Leslie Knope to cheer me up. She reminds me that it's okay to be weird...because she's a total weirdo but she effing rules. 

x 

the fault in our stars.

Mr E. Sheeran.

what i got out of this past weekend is that ed sheeran is absolutely fantastic live. and he's cute. and short. and he wears 3/4 cargo pants on stage. so much respect.

the duets i loved the best: opening for ed were gabrielle aplin and a guy mike who goes by the name of "passenger" and they both sang duets with ed throughout the concert.

ugh, to die for! fantastic. all such amazing voices.





the story about the "kiss me" song is pretty adorbs - apparently ed's parents friends were best friends for 50 years and finally got married. so he dedicated the song to "all those people out there who fall in love with their best friends."
cuuuuuuuuuuuute.

Adam!

"Hi, I’m Adam, and I’m an alcoholic. Um, I’ve been sober since I was 17. Um, I knew I had a problem pretty early and I dealt with it because I didn’t wanna wait, and I knew it would just get worse. I felt pretty solid after I stopped drinking, I stopped coming to as many meetings, but lately I haven’t felt so solid anymore so… I had this girlfriend who at first I didn’t like very much, or, I didn’t take her very seriously, I guess. She just seemed like, you know, a piece of ass. But she was persistent, man. And she just hung around, and hung around, and showed up at my place—and gradually, it started to feel better when she was there. It wasn’t “love” the way I imagined it. I just felt weird if I didn’t know what she was up to or whatever. And I liked knowing that she was just gonna be there, and warm, and staying the night. And she acted like I was teaching her everything. About f***in’ history, about sex. She didn’t know what street Central Park started on, or how to use soap. And I showed her. And I wanted that chance to show someone everything. But she changed her mind about me, and it was that fast. I’m so exhausted. Okay. And I’ll bring cookies. I don’t really like cookies that much so don’t get mad if I bring the wrong shit."

my life.

50 questions, 50 ways to get to know me.

1: What would you name your future daughter? - Annie.  

2: Do you miss anyone? - Yes, so so much!

3: What if I told you that you were pretty? - Thank youuuuuu!

4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”? - Yessss. I believed them at the time, but now I don't.

5: What are you looking forward to in the next week? - Going to see Ed Sheeran with the sis! Woo hoo!

6: Did you go out or stay in last night? - Stay in, yo. Living the dream.

7: How late did you stay up last night? - 11:30.

8: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months? - Does my sister count? Hah.

9: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon? - I was registering NZ's births. Pretty exciting stuff!

10: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it? - No. I have to mean it.

11: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? - I could, but I don't wanna.

12: Have you pretended to like someone? - Sorta?

13: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? - AWWW HELL YEAH! I hate cigarettes.

14: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? - Of course.

15: Is it hard for you to get over someone? - Depends who it is. But yeah, it can be hard.

16: Think back five months ago, were you single? - Sure was.

17: Have you ever cried from being so mad? - Yuh huh.

18: Hold hands with anyone this week? - Nope.

19: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed? - Nope!

20: Who did you last see in person? - James and Pauline.

21: What is the last thing you said out loud? - "Drove me wiiiild" (singing along to Tegan and Sara)

22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night? - I ain't that lucky.

23: Have you ever been to Paris? - Nope!

24: Are you good at hiding your feelings? - I am, I'm a bit of a feeling bottler.

25: Do you use chap stick? - YES! Can't live without it.

26: Who did you last share a bed with? - My gorgeous sister.

27: Are you listening to music right now? - Tegan and Sara, Heartthrob. FEELS!

28: What is something you currently want right now? - A diet coke. Uhhh.

29: Were your last three kisses from the same person? Yes.

30: How is your heart lately? - Pretty full. It's crazy.

31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? - If it's cold?

32: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you? - The weekend.

33: What do people call you? - James, Jim Bob, Jim, Jaymo, Jim Jams, Jimmy Lou.

34: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t? - So so so many times. I even felt it today.

35: Are there any stressful situations in your life? - Mmhmm. This week's been a bit stressful.

36: What are you listening to right now? - "How Come You Don't Want Me Now"

37: What is wrong with you right now? - I'm a little confused about what I want. My head and heart are so busy trying to figure it out.

38: Love really is a beautiful thing huh? - YES.

39: Do you make wishes at 11:11? - Sometimes.

40: What is on your wrists right now? - My silver bracelet.

41: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused/waiting for the unexpected? - Waiting for the unexpected?

42: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing? - a dress from Cotton On.

43: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? - YES.

44: Have you hugged someone within the last week? - Sure have!

45: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days? - Nope.

46: What were you doing at midnight last night? - Sleeping, mate.

47: Do you miss the way things were six months ago? - Hmmm, sometimes. Not a lot has really changed though.

48: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? - It has to be with the right person...I can be quite restless when I sleep with others. But probs someone else.

49: Have you ever been to New York? - No, but I really want to!

50: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? - Yes :) 

and you can tell everybody this is your song.

"But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song,
it's for people like you that keep it turned on. 
So excuse me for forgetting, but these things I do.
You see, I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue. 
Anyway, the thing is, what I really mean...
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen."

le tunes

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My latest music crushes have been Dragon (Are You Old Enough, ooh oooh!), the Smash soundtrack, Come On Eileen, anything by Icehouse, Ho Hey, Icona Pop, the Drive soundtrack and Lana Del Rey.
My iTunes is a kaleidescope; you'll also find Niggas in Paris. That was Kate and I's song from Melbourne. Many a day we sang "That shit cray...that shit cray".

Love,

J

late night run.

throwback wednesday.

why is it that the two boys i've ever dated lived on the same street at some point? holloway road, aro valley. a dark, dingy but very vintage street.
when i went for my run tonight i ran past michael's house; i was thrown back to 2009, playing poker in the lounge, losing horribly. scrumpy hands, michael throwing up out the window. making spaghetti bolognaise for everyone. the horrible shower. those kisses...those conversations, flooded back to me.
i was tired by the time i walked (puffed) past christie's house. no lights were on. this house i visited 5 times max. his mattress on the floor, books in boxes everywhere, unpacked. his business magazines. his brother on his computer in the corner, cracking jokes. he was one of the funniest people i've met. watching alexander on the laptop. tickle fights. dancing in the kitchen.
they don't live there anymore; the houses are slept in by others, making their own memories, good, bad, maybe they will run past these houses one day and remember the good times.

i got more than i bargained for on this run. i met two gorgeous kittens who i immediately become bff's with (!), and i was forced to remember everything about my ex boyfriends.

c'mon eileen!

If you know me, you'll know that I love this song. And my dancing is pretty amazing. Pauline just said "That songs reminds me of you!" and I said "I'm just saying, this song's gonna be at my wedding."

And we're gonna dance like this:



I can't wait for my wedding, even though I don't know when, where or to whom. I've got an image in my head of what it will be like, though. It'll be awesome.

x