Ideal Father/Husband/Person

"Mockingbirds don't do one thing but make music for us to enjoy. They don't eat up people's gardens, don't nest in corncribs, they don't do one thing but sing their hearts out for us. That's why it's a sin to kill a mockingbird."
- Atticus Finch

summer + christmas = bloody excited.

Give Me Love.

Okay, so I'm in love with this ginger-haired boy who sings like nothing else.

Ed Sheeran, how do you do it?

His album '+' has been on repeat for a week now, and I don't think it's going to stop anytime soon.

best bit - "oh my my my, give me love, lover"

My new favourite poem.

THE ARCHIPELAGO of KISSES

We live in a modern society. Husbands and wives don’t

grow on trees, like in the old days. So where

does one find love? When you’re sixteen it’s easy,

like being unleashed with a credit card

in a department store of kisses. There’s the first kiss.

The sloppy kiss. The peck.

The sympathy kiss. The backseat smooch. The we

shouldn’t be doing this kiss. The but your lips

taste so good kiss. The bury me in an avalanche of tingles kiss.

The I wish you’d quit smoking kiss.

The I accept your apology, but you make me really mad

sometimes kiss. The I know

your tongue like the back of my hand kiss. As you get

older, kisses become scarce. You’ll be driving

home and see a damaged kiss on the side of the road,

with its purple thumb out. If you

were younger, you’d pull over, slide open the mouth’s

red door just to see how it fits. Oh where

does one find love? If you rub two glances, you get a smile.

Rub two smiles, you get a warm feeling.

Rub two warm feelings and presto-you have a kiss.

Now what? Don’t invite the kiss over

and answer the door in your underwear. It’ll get suspicious

and stare at your toes. Don’t water the kiss with whiskey.

It’ll turn bright pink and explode into a thousand luscious splinters,

but in the morning it’ll be ashamed and sneak out of

your body without saying good-bye,

and you’ll remember that kiss forever by all the little cuts it left

on the inside of your mouth. You must

nurture the kiss. Turn out the lights. Notice how it

illuminates the room. Hold it to your chest

and wonder if the sand inside hourglasses comes from a

special beach. Place it on the tongue’s pillow,

then look up the first recorded kiss in an encyclopedia: beneath

a Babylonian olive tree in 1200 B.C.

But one kiss levitates above all the others. The

intersection of function and desire. The I do kiss.

The I’ll love you through a brick wall kiss.

Even when I’m dead, I’ll swim through the Earth,

like a mermaid of the soil, just to be next to your bones.

. The Archipelago of Kisses, by Jeffrey McDaniel

Top 10 Movie Scenes.

Top 10 Movie Scenes

According to moi. In no particular order.

1) The Boat That Rocked - The scene where Harold and John sit down next to Young Carl and try and cheer him up with a cup of tea and Tim Tams. Young Carl doesn't eat them, so they dig into them themselves. It's bloody adorable!

Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fjT1dwG4YSI

2) Walk The Line - Johnny & June singing "It Ain't Be Babe". This song made me fall in love with the movie.

3) Almost Famous - The soundtrack to this film is damn good, but the best song in it is hands down "Tiny Dancer" by Elton John. The scene where they are all on the bus, and they start singing the song one by one, gives me chills. Absolutely love it.

4) P.S I Love You - The bar scene where Holly sees Gerry again by chance, and he's singing "Galway Girl". The way he sings the song is TDF, and the kiss at the end? Love it.

5) Love Actually - one of my all-time favourite christmas movies. Of all the amazing scenes in that film, this one is the best. Mark goes to Juliet's house and declares his love for her with cue cards. I love it because he doesn't expect her to leave her husband, and she doesn't. It's just perfect.

6) Stepmom - The epic lipsync to "Ain't No Mountain High Enough". Little Ben's dance moves are adorable! Plus, I love the way Jena's character says "I'm sorry you're sick". It's beautiful. This scene really tickles my fancy because it's something me and my family would do.

7) Before Sunset - the conversations in this movie are fantastic. I really love the simplicity of them; they're so real and convincing, you'd believe this was just a normal everyday couple. I love them. Here's a scene where Celine pretends to call her friend and Jesse plays along. "I think that's when I fell for him. The idea of this little boy with all these beautiful dreams."

8) Wayne's World - Wayne, Garth and their rocker buddies (and Phil, can't forget Phil) sing along to Bohemian Rhapsody. Pretty damn cool.

9) Forrest Gump - The scene where he visits Jenny's grave. "Jenny, I don't know if Momma was right or if, if it's Lieutenant Dan. I don't know if we each have a destiny, or if we're all just floating around accidental-like on a breeze, but I, I think maybe it's both. Maybe both is happening at the same time. I miss you, Jenny. If there's anything you need, I won't be far away."

10) Home Alone - Kevin plays the film Angels With Filthy Souls and scares people off. I always use the quotes "Leave it on the door step and get the hell out of here" and "You filthy animal!" in everyday life.

All Men Are Created Equal.

All Men Are Created Equal

To Kill a Mockingbird

— MOVIECLIPS.com

X-Factor Blues.

Drew, you should've stayed. Gutted.

lols on a friday night.

Me & Pauline, two funny people.

*watch the news, story about a bushfire in Aussie, shot of a house burning down*

"God, that's why you don't move to Aussie. When you leave your house, it'll burn down" - Paul

"Go the dairy, nek minnit...." - Me

*we both proceed to laugh until we cry*

We should be on 7 Days.

ideas.

moving desks and kennedy.

It's been a weird couple of days - only the start of the week! Blurgh, or in Sims terms, Flargh.

There's good parts, of course they're not all bad. I have fun at work. I enjoy it. People make me laff, and we have quiiiiiite a bit of fun. I enjoy Arna-Kate's sarcasm, and James' funny comments about pretty much everything, and Sophie's shortened words, Tiffany's cute laugh.

There's been a bit of drama that I hope sorts it's stuff out. I have to move desks, and I don't really want to...but oh well, it'll work out. It might be good to have a change...really will miss my lovely desk though. We had some good times...*mock sniff* haha.

Today = meetings galore, and Army Boss gave us all an intense lecture about how we have to work harder. I don't know if it was pointed at our team though...it was kind of awks.

Sometimes I get a bit in over my head, and today was a prime example.

I tried writing my Kennedy story the other day. I came up with an awesome starting couple of lines, but could just not continue...ah well, in time...Also, by Kennedy I don't mean our friend JFK, but a novel about a boy who is named Kennedy =)

My nephew's girlfriend is being a bit weird on facebook. It's annoying me a bit. Like, show him some respect. I'm a bit protective, I gotta say.

Anyway, i'm out. this was another really weird post. I'm currently wearing black geeky glasses just for the hell of it. God, I'm off to sleep! Desk moving day tomorrow.

Wear Sunscreen!

Ladies and gentlemen, class of '99.

Wear sunscreen.

I will always live my life by this song. I guess at this age I'm at now, it means so much.

James Vincent McMorrow - We Don't Eat

I moved to the coast, under a mountain
Swam in the ocean, slept on my own
At dawn I would watch the sun cut ribbons through the bay
I'd remember all the things my mother wrote

That we don't eat until your father's at the table
We don't drink until the devil's turned to dust
Never once has any man I've met been able to love
So if I were you, I'd have a little trust

Two thousand years, I've been in that water
Two thousand years, sunk like a stone
Desperately reaching for nets
That the fishermen have thrown
Trying to find, a little bit of hope

Me I was holding, all of my secrets soft and hid
Pages were folded, then there was nothing at all
So if in the future I might need myself a savior
I'll remember what was written on that wall

That we don't eat until your father's at the table
We don't drink until the devil's turned to dust
Never once has any man I've met been able to love
So if I were you, I'd have a little trust

pretty.

‎"Sometimes while I ride the subway I try to look at each person and imagine what they look like to someone who is totally in love with them. I think everyone has had someone look at them that way, whether it was a lover, or a parent, or a friend, whether they know it or not. It’s a wonderful thing, to look at someone to whom I would never be attracted and think about what looking at them feels like to someone who is devouring every part of their image, who has invisible strings that are connected to this person tied to every part of their body. I think this fun pastime is a way of cultivating compassion. It feels good to think about people that way, and to use that part of my mind that I think is traditionally reserved for a tiny portion of people I’ll meet in my life to appreciate the general public. I wish I thought about people like this more often. I think it’s the opposite of what our culture teaches us to do. We prefer to pick people apart to find their flaws. Cultivating these feelings of love or appreciation for random people, and even for people I don’t like, makes me a more forgiving and appreciative person toward myself and people I love. Also, it’s just a really excellent pastime."

Dean Spade, 'For Lovers and Fighters'

the prince.

Now this is a story all about how my life got flipped turned upside down, now I'd like to take a minute, so just sit right there, I'll tell you all about how I became the prince of a town called Bel Air.

In West Philadelphia, born and raised, in a playground was where I spent most of my days. Chillin' out, maxin', relaxing all cool, and shooting some B-ball outside of the school, when a couple of guys who were up to no good started making trouble in my neighbourhood...I got in one little fight, and my mom got scared and said "You're moving with your Aunty and Uncle in Bel Air"

I begged and I pleaded with them, day after day, but she packed my suitcase and sent me on my way. She gave me a kiss and then she gave me my ticket, I put my walkman on and said "I might as well kick it". First class, yo, this is bad, drinking orange juice out of a champagne glass? Is this what the people in Bel Air live like? Hm, this might be alright.

I whistled for a cab and when it came near, the licence plate said "Fresh" and had dice in the mirror. If anything I could say this cab was rare, but I thought, nah forget it, yo home to Bel Air!

I pulled up to the house about 7 or 8 and and yelled to the cabbie "Yo homes, smell you later!" Looked at my kingdom, I was finally there, to sit on my throne as the Prince of Bel Air.

She showed me her room, isn't it good, Norwegian Wood?

One of my favourite Beatles songs is definitely Norwegian Wood.

We talked until two, and then she said, it's time for bed. She told me she worked in the morning and started to laugh. I told her I didn't, and crawled up to sleep in the bath.

Home alone, listening to the Beatles and about to make chicken chow mein. Is it weird that I'm strangely excited for this?

Also, in a week and one day, we will be in Fiji. FIJI!

l'america.

I miss this place.

Let's go back!

So, we won the rugby last night?

BOOYAH, AUSTRAH-LIA!

you're asking me, will my love grow? i don't know.

God, I love Across The Universe.

Why do you let me stay here?

Oh god, this song!

bits and pieces of nothing.

I also really adore mute skyping with my American frand! We couldn't hear each other but would just make faces and IM and crack up at what each other said.

We're pretty cool.

I'm getting a bit behind at work...I think it's because I laugh too much! It is seriously the funniest times in the world. I don't think anyone would really understand how funny it is working for BDM. Flip, man.

Today some lady wrote an angry letter saying "I'm deeply corned about this!" and we just mocked the shit out of it. James: "Does anyone want some chocolate?" Sophie: "Yes, and I'll be deeply corned if you do not give me any." ahahahaha.

Then we all made sandwiches as a team. We had to set up for morning tea. We had a Fiji quiz. We ate melon lollies from a Korean shop down the road. It's pretty rad.

listening to Achy Breaky Heart, waiting for my friend Nicole to arrive from Tauranga! woop!

i'm blue.

Now, listen up, here's a story about a little guy that lives in a blue world. And all day and all night everything he sees is just blue, like him, inside and outside, blue his house with a blue little window, and a blue corvette and everything is blue for him, and himself, and everybody around, cos he ain't got nobody to listen...

skype sistah's.

Me and my sister rule on Skype, jussayin' :)

kyle.

I just realised I have an obsession with children/young people in movies and books. I think they are the most gorgeous, real, pure characters. I have a real fascination with them. For example, Scout in To Kill A Mockingbird, Nono from The Round Up and more recently, Kyle from the film Win Win.

Kyle, oh Kyle. He was so sweet, so slow, so polite. Like, he was kind of a boy from the wrong side of the tracks but he respected his elders. He wasn't trying to be anything he wasn't. The way he wanted to go to the supermarket with Jackie? Adorbs. Out of the blue he's just like "Can I come?" And how he hung out with their 6 year old daughter all the time.

Me and my friend looked at each other and she said "I'm in love with this kid."

I think that's why I want to write books about young people. I find them so interesting, and uplifting. I love childhood/adolescence. I find it so incredibly appealing. I'm so nostalgic to my past, so I guess that's one reason why...

Which is better?

'The Boy Is Mine'

Brandy and Monica

Santana and Mercedes

J'afreakingdore this song.

got the moves like jagger

New fave song: 'Moves Like Jagger'. I THOUGHT I WOULD HATE IT. but everytime i hear it, i just want to boogie...all night long.

Had a team meeting today. Phone calls are now getting recorded. Super nervous, as I bet I say some dumb shit on the phone sometimes...oh well, will have to work on it =) Le workmate said that we should answer the calls real gangsta until they put the recording in next Tuesday haha. "Sup, J-Dog here from BDM" hahaha.

And, that is all. My posts are so all over the place these days. Will try to do a proper, more coherent, post soon, my avid followers (aka the internet void...maybe Tara might be reading this. If she is, hi Tara!)

Night =)

new ideaaaaaaa...

I might make a blog about random people I see, or notice, in everyday life. I just love people, and characters, and just seeing how similar and how different we all can be.

stay tuned...

in the meantime, i love this site! www.writing.upenn.edu/library/Mayer-Bernadette_Experiments.html has some great ideas about both blogs/journals and writing.

need to get back into writing. i have been slack and lazy about it, which is not good. writing is all i want to do, yet i don't really do it! except write letters to mothers at work. i write awesome letters, like a BAWSS, I have you know. I am so so so used to writing "Thank you for registering ______ with Births, Deaths and Marriages, received on _________" that my fingers just do it automatically.

i like work. the people are hilarious! god. i have a work quote book and i feel a bit embarrassed sometimes when people read it. i mean, i'm not a stalker, i just love observing and remembering funny stuff. today someone said "oh god, i have to watch what i say!" but i was like nah...it's just funny quotes. and it stays in the book. i don't write down scandalous stuff. my quote book is honestly the coolest thing about work. might publish it one day...naaaaaaah, jokes (*shifty eyes*)

anyway, off to do my washing/clean my room/eat dinner/watch friends. adios.

Lisa Loeb - Stay

This songgggggggggggggggggggg.

and I thought I'd live forever, but now I'm not so sure.

you try to tell me that I'm clever,
but that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with you.

you said that I was naive,
and I thought that I was strong.
I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."
but now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed you.

you said, "You caught me 'cause you want me and one day you'll let me go."
"you try to give away a keeper, or keep me 'cause you know you're just so scared to lose."
and you say, "stay."

you say I only hear what I want to.

I think the truth is that I'm afraid I'll get my heart broken. I've kind of decided that I will distance myself, a little bit. Not too much, in case. But I just don't want me feeling so much for someone who doesn't really feel the same way.

I just have this weird feeling. I guess I'll see what happens. Maybe I'm just not sure what to do. What to say. How to act. How far to go. It's been so long. But I really like him.

I'm the kind of person that if he told me that he liked somebody else, I would let him go. I would care about his feelings before my own. I would be the 'good friend' and not want to seem too clingy and eager, and say, okay, go to her. But I know I should fight for this. Something that I've wanted for a wee while.

Wild Thing - Tone Loc.

Oldie, but kind of a goodie...guilty pleasure, maybe?

Lorene Scafaria - We Can't Be Friends

Flippin' fantastic.

sunday afternoon.

My playlist for this week:

1. Gotye (feat. Kimbra) - 'Somebody That I Used To Know'
2. Sister Hazel - 'All For You'
3. Collective Soul - 'World I Know'
4. EMF - 'Unbelievable'
5. Haddaway - 'What Is Love'
6. Blind Melon - 'No Rain'
7. Fat Boy Slim - 'Rockafeller Skank'
8. Best Coast - 'Our Deal'
9. Maroon 5 and Christina Aguilera - 'Moves Like Jagger'
10. Collective Soul (again...) - 'Shine'

Such goodies I've just recently come across after not hearing them for a long time, such as Collective Soul and FBS. Love them. And how good is Gotye? He and Kimbra should always sing together, they're musical soulmates.

Currently buying togs online for Fiji, and drinking a bottle of Limeade. Hmmm, limeade? I pronounce it "Lim-ee-ayde" to make it sound more exotic. It's bloody delicious. I'm feeling a bit out of sorts as I managed to try sake, a tequila shot, and whiskey all in one night. Not to mention an AWESOME teapot from Alice. Night of firsts! Damn good, but my body isn't handling it too well today... but all i have to say is...

no regrets!

Currently listening to - Best Coast! Ultimate fave.

Maybe I'm just crazy, but I sometimes feel like there is another life I could be living, like I'm living mine all wrong. I could be overseas, I could be exploring the world (and I know I would love it, and be so curious about everything), I could be working with books or writing, i could be writing a book and be on my way to publishing it, I could be totally in love with some rad guy and he with me. But that's another thing all together.

Could I be doing anything different? I'm registering births by day. I'm watching the odd movie or episode of something by night. The nights go so quick, and the days too.

I have dreams, but I don't really know where they stand at the moment. They're so vivid and they're still there in my head, ready to be put into action but I'm not really sure where to go. I don't want to register births all my life, but I love the people I work with too much to give it up right now. I need to travel though, I know it. I feel it in my bones. I need to be out there, breathing and seeing such different things. I don't want to be in a rut.

I will make a promise to myself right now - to not give up, to keep the dreams alive and start making them work. Pinky swear!

mango tree.

I wish I had a mango tree
In my backyard
With you standin next to me
Take the picture
From her lips I heard her say
Can I have you
Caught up in what to say
I said you do

I said you do
I said you do
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/a/angus_and_julia_stone/mango_tree.html ]
Through my eyes I can see
A shooting star
Weavin' it's way across the sea
Somewhere from mars
Down the street we would run
To scratch our names in the park
Young and free in the sun
Wheels upon the tar
I said you do
I said you do
I said you do
I said you do.

Angus and Julia Stone - Mango Tree

Watch, listen, and swoon.

Weird things:

^ Us at Harry Potter! 3D. Not sure if 3D was the best thing in the world, but it sure was great in the Kings Cross scene.

So, random things about me:

I am super messy when I brush my teeth. I was just brushing them before, and I was like woah...calm down, mate. I go all crazy and I get paste (nearly wrote pasta) all over my mouth and look like a child.

I'm a slow eater and drinker sometimes. People make fun of me for it.

I love cupcakes.

I want to learn photography.

I want to travel so bad that I actually don't know where I want to go first...anywhere's fine! I'll start with Fiji and work my way up.

I am a good person. I want the best for people. I never intentionally try to make anyone unhappy. It's just the way I have always been -nice.

I am shy, and sometimes this may come across as snobby - depends on the person. Sometimes I just don't know what to say, and I spend so long trying to think that I end up not saying a word. But with others, I can't stop talking. I definitely get along better with talkative people.

I'm super tired and bored, and not sure what to do on this lovely Saturday night.

and everything that i said i'd do,

like make the world brand new,

and take the time for you,

i just got lost,

and slept right through the dark,

and the world spins madly on.

I clash with those who are too negative.
Negativity, confronted by my positivity, is repelled like a magnet.

Hermione's Song.

We belong together, Hermione.

Yes, I admit, I'm on a Harry goddamn Potter high! :) But what better high to be on? Let's hope this lasts forever.

HP.

Am in tears!

it all ended.

It's over.

Nothing left to live for.

I love you, The Boy Who Lived.

don't be too quick to judge.

people are worth listening to.

nice, Cherie Carter-Scott.

Ten Rules for Being Human

by Cherie Carter-Scott

1.	You will receive a body. You may like it or hate it, but it's yours to keep for the entire period.
2.	You will learn lessons. You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called, "life."
3.	There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of trial, error, and experimentation. The "failed" experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiments that ultimately "work."
4.	Lessons are repeated until they are learned. A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it, you can go on to the next lesson.
5.	Learning lessons does not end. There's no part of life that doesn't contain its lessons. If you're alive, that means there are still lessons to be learned.
6.	"There" is no better a place than "here." When your "there" has become a "here", you will simply obtain another "there" that will again look better than "here."
7.	Other people are merely mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects to you something you love or hate about yourself.
8.	What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.
9.	Your answers lie within you. The answers to life's questions lie within you. All you need to do is look, listen, and trust.
10.	You will forget all this.

graduate.

I'm sitting here downloading music as much as I can before my internet is restarted tomorrow. It's late, I'm tired, I'm always tired, I need a good weekend where I can stay at home all day and not talk to anyone but the TV screen when something good happens... I just want to watch Jim and Pam, reblog every picture that takes my fancy on Tumblr, make yummy pasta (my latest fave thing) for dinner, and be warm under the heat pump.

I love my job. I can't really explain it, but it's just unique and wonderful and busy and hectic, and rewarding, and different. Why am I even doing this? Birth registrations? Death? Marriage? Who would've even thought? Last year, I had my eye on publishing. I still do, but this is quite a merry little interlude while I try to write something substantial and work out where to go next. Travel, money, writing!

Stay tuned. I'm just a graduate trying to figure out what to do next.

bob.

roger's playlist number three is underway...

if you don't know what i mean - read Amy and Roger's Epic Detour by Morgan Matson. it'll blow your mind!

got some new tunes under my belt, but really, all i want to listen to is 'Night Moves' by Bob Seger over and over again. sometimes i think i'm born in the wrong era, like i really actually belong in america, with the cowboys, dancin' in bars and chilling by the camp fire.

Le film!

Is it just me, or is Hollywood (and other lovely movie-making places! hah) making extremely lovely and fantastic movies these days? So picturesque, so vivid, so wonderful to look at, and watch. I just love the deep storylines, the emotion packed in. It's fabulous. I can't wait to see this movie. This, along with The Vow, (Rachel McAdams, gorgeous as always) and The Perks of Being a Wallflower comes out next year, with Emma Watson.

Can't wait!

I went and saw Barney's Version tonight with my movie friend Kate, and it was really good - however, the trailer set it up to be a comedy, but it was a barrel of cries! I spent most of the remainder of the movie bawling my eyes out, and listening to the girl next to me snivvelling too. Poor poor poor Barney. It just broke my heart. Beautiful film, though. Scott Speedman, SUCH A BABE!

That's my movie titbits for now :) Until I see another movie...

a day in the life...

Ahhh, hair. I always wish I could have perfect, lovely, effortless hair. But everytime I wake up, it's out to here *holds out hands* and I can't really do much with it. It's frizzy, peer-pressured by humidity,

I do love my hair, the curls always get compliments, but the curls get so much sometimes, it's almost suffocating. It's just one of those things...no pain no gain, huh?

Brb, googling how to style curly hair.

The Cute.

My jam!

funeral songs, everywhere.

Sometimes I walk along imagining things to update this lovely slice of a blog, but then I completely forget.

But, one thing that's always on my mind lately; maybe it's because I've been dealing with death registrations at work (Christchurch Earthquake death regs, oh no!), is that of death. It's really strange. I can't stop thinking about what it's like to die, what happens to the people you leave behind, the way they feel, the way you can be taken at any moment. I don't know how to deal with these feelings, but I guess we all have these moments.

Life is so damn precious. We don't really notice it until it's gone. We don't really know how much we love having someone with us until they're gone. I just love how life is like this - short, but long, with so many different emotions and people around us to deal with, and memories that last forever.

Death makes life so important. It's the idea of death that makes us want to live our lives.

Rhiannon - Fleetwood Mac

These guys I could never get sick of. "It's like being inside a dream or something," Rose Dewitt-Bukator said of Picasso. I feel the same way about Fleety.

shine.

I can see it in your eyes, what I know in my heart is true. That our love it has faded, like a summer run through. So we'll walk down the shoreline, one last time together, feel the wind blow our wanderin' hearts, like a feather. But who knows what's waiting in the wings of time, dry your eyes, we're gonna go where we can shine.

Don't be hiding in sorrow, or clinging to the past, with your beauty so precious and the season so fast. No matter how cold the horizon appears, or how far the first night when I held you near, you gotta rise from these ashes like a bird of flame. Step out of the shadow, we gotta go where we can shine.

For all that we struggle, for all we pretend, it don't come down to nothing, except love in the end. And ours is a road that is strewn with goodbyes, but as it all unfolds, as it all unwinds, remember your soul is the one thing you can't compromise. Take my hand, we're gonna go, where, we, can, shine.

Through the windows of midnight,

moonfoam and silver.

betty and don.

i want...

I want a new camera, to read the Harry Potter books all in a row, to live in a small town for a year, a white christmas, to work at Borders, a dentist check up, Mad Men clothes, to kiss someone during the Hellogoodbye 'Here In Your Arms' instrumental, to go to Russia, to hug all my friends in one huge group hug, to go to the Carolinas, to live in New York, to write for a magazine, to do what i want to do, not what everyone else wants, like Bon Jovi and Billy Joel say "it's my life."

Movies To Watch

- Cleopatra

- The Philadelphia Story

- A Place In The Sun

- To Catch A Thief

- Bullitt

- Love Story

- Saturday Night Fever

- It Happened One Night

- Gone With The Wind

- Pillow Talk

- Adam's Rib

- Who's Afraid of Virginia Woolf?

- A New Kind of Love

- Risky Business

- Nine to Five

- Swing Shift

- Disclosure

- The First Wives Club

- Wall Street

- Sabrina

I Put A Spell On You

I watched Nowhere Boy this weekend, and I adored it! Mainly because of the fabulous music (I am a sucker for 50s and 60s tunes), and the clothing - Aaron Johnson's glasses? Sexxxxxy. This song was pretty much amazing. I love the trumpet sounds at the start, the sharp and quick ones. Dancing to this would be bliss.

Casey Abrams.

Words cannot express. I've really grown accustomed to this year's American Idol - I know it seems geeky, but I absolutely adore them. They have so much talent, it is crazy! To me, I just wish they could all stay on and just sing new themes every week and just blow me away. (Other than annoying Jacob, who needs to go home)... I'm pretty gutted that Casey's gone now. Like, incredibly. His duets with Haley, of whom I will ship forever, were my favourite thing.

So this song was beautiful for many reasons:

• Him hugging and kissing Steve 'Styler' Tyler, J-Lo, and Randy 'Rydell High' Jackson,
• Hugging and kissing the freaking AUDIENCE! and singing as he did it? How the hell?
• Him hi-5-ing that person, and then accidently rejecting that guy's hi-5...ahahaha, classic,
• His roll onto the stage,
• "You're mine" at the end looking at Haley, about to give her a big fat pash. I wish he did it!

Okay, enough geekiness for one day. You guys know too much...

I love this man.

Home Alone

"You're what the French call 'les incompetents'".

I've sort of come to the realisation, and conclusion, that while you may like someone there is no guarantee they will like you back. Liking someone doesn't mean that there's this invisible connection, a force that makes them feel the same way. While it would be grand for that to be so, it isn't always the way.

After a similar situation happening to me, it's just hit me. I'm on the opposite end of it. I do not care for someone like they care for me.

So, quite negatively, I have began to think - what if the person I care for doesn't care for me?

Things I'm Digging:

In no particular order...

The Graduate.

"You're the first thing for so long that I've liked. The first person I could stand to be with."

I just had the weirdest memory come to me.

I remember back when I was thirteen and I used to work at World of Horses with Laura, Hannah, Anjali and Kyle; we decided to ride the horses bareback from the paddock up the road, back to the stables.

I fell off Prince, this tall, thin, grumpy thing, as the others were riding away. "It's okay guys, don't worry!" I said, leading him over to a log so I could get back up.

Kyle yelled, much to my dismay, "It's okay, we're not!"

Silly boy.

I kind of wish we could all get together and go riding for old times sake, and sing along to that 99 Bottles of Beer on the Wall, and steal free ice blocks from the freezer.

david gray.

Sail away with me, honey. I got your heart in my hands.

Sail away with me honey, now, now, now.

movies = life.

The Movies I Quote In Every-Day Life:

• Titanic: "I'm sorry, Fabrizio. I'm sorry. You're not gonna see your mom again for a long time...COS WE'RE GOING TO AMERICA, FULL HOUSE BOYS!"


• Love Actually: "Thank the Lord!"


• The Boat That Rocked: "That is NOT a good record."


• The Boat That Rocked: "Hiiiiiiiiiiii guuuuuuuys!"


• Wayne's World: "I was not aware of that."


• Titanic: "Sorry. You seem more like a kinda...indoor girl."


• Harry Potter & the Philosopher's Stone: "Mr Potter...our...new...celebrity."

sometimes my words are in code - it cracks me up because a lot of what i say is obscure movie quotes. for example: me and my nephew were riding on a motorbike over these bumps in the ground. Me: "It's gonna be a buuuumpy ride!" My nephew then turned to me and said "Prizoner of Azkaban?"

Heck yes, POA!

ding, ding.

woah, how can i even begin to explain? it's been so long! i could be doing so much...but no, i'm just working, geekily playing age of empires marathons with the bff/flatmate, reading books as fast as i can (which is at a snail pace), watch old black and white movies like Shadow of a Doubt, and plan a trip to Fiji in the summer....

i'm still trying to figure out the right place to go - there's so many different islands, and i have no clue which one is the one for me and the bff! hmmm, i will just go with whatever has the best deal =) and i can't wait to sip champagne and fruit juice as the sun sets above the water... beautiful. i can't wait to travel everywhere, and anywhere. i think i'll be happy whereever i go, just as long as it's safe and i'm with good people.

i'm off like a dirty shirt! it's raining, it's pouring, and daylight savings is here, and as a result i am uber tired and it's actually 11.51! aaaaaaargh! sleeeeeeeptime for me, and more awkward work-times in the morning...