bees.

'"We walked into the night, into the blurring song of katydids, the thud-splat of raindrops on the umbrella, all those terrible rhythms that take up inside when you let your guard down. Left you, they drummed. Left you. Left you.

Knowing can be a curse on a person's life. I'd traded in a pack of lies for a pack of truth, and I didn't know which one was heavier. Which one took the most strength to carry around? It was a ridiculous question, though, because once you know the truth, you can't ever go back and pick up your suitcase of lies. Heavier or not, the truth is yours now.

In the honey house, August waited until I crawled under the sheets, then bent over and kissed my forehead.

"Every person on the face of the earth makes mistakes, Lily. Every last one. We're all so human. Your mother made a terrible mistake, but she tried to fix it."

"Good night," I said, and rolled onto my side.

"There is nothing perfect," August said from the doorway. "There is only life."'

- The Secret Life of Bees by Sue Monk Kidd.

this kiss.

just say yes.

So, I've been working so much lately that I'm just like:

SO THANK GOD FOR THE WEEKEND!

But to be honest, I love it! I haven't worked full time before, so it's all very new and I love meeting new people and stuff. The people are really cool - Sakura, the adorbs Japanese/English lady who makes it awkward when people ask where she's from; Ana, the naughty high schooler who wears cute dresses and loves eating chips and quotes I Love You, Man with me; John, the Samoan father of two (and a stepdaughter) who always says "hard out" and loves music; and Aniella, the funny and bubbly Shortland Street extra who is never cocky (I only found this out after a week of working with her) and gives great advice...

Love those guys.

Although I'm looking forward to perhaps getting to sleep in a little bit more, the prospect of never really seeing these people again is looming before me...I'm sure they wouldn't mind too much, but I want to add them on facebook or something! Haha, major stalker Jamie coming through.

je suis fatigue.

like you'd NEVER believe.

i finished The Secret Life Of Bees though, and it was brilliant. I heart Lily Melissa Owens, and August Boatwright, & the relationship between Lily and Zach? Gorge.

i'm sort of floating through life at the moment. not knowing where to stop, or what to think.

but i won't think about it too much. i'll just let it all go.

gone in the morning.

love love love. like like like.

never saw eyes so blue.

Fragile, like a swan. Like anything can touch me. Where's that outer shell I used to wear? I used to wear it like armour. It wasn't a bad shell, it was a shell of happiness and content. I believe I will fight for that shell again. It was comfortable, and I felt like nothing could touch me.