stories we tell//

Stories We Tell

This movie was so powerful & it will stick with me for a very, very long time. It was told so beautifully, from the perspectives of many different family members and friends of filmmaker Sarah Polley, showing the importance of storytelling and differing perspectives when it comes to the truth. It was a beautiful, moving documentary. Definitely a must-see. 

Check out: -- 17 Life Lessons From Stories We Tell

"I will go on."

Looking//understanding

"Do you ever just look at people? I mean, really look at them," he asked. 

He always had a beautiful mind.

Today I went to a book shop and spent my lunchtime with the books. They're basically my best friends. I take in the smell, the beautiful covers, my eyes scavenge the blurbs, make a mental note of books that I want to read. There'll be a million of them now, worlds waiting to be read. Lessons waiting to be learned. 

I headed back to work, strolling Willis street in purple tights and a 50s style dress, "Another Day (The Art Of Flight)" in my ears, and I really looked at people. I looked at people who were in love, who were eating on their own, people who were alone but not lonely, people who were alone and lonely, people laughing, people with their own lives & thoughts going on beneath the surface. 

I have my own life & thoughts going on beneath my surface. I am going to love who I want to love & send that love out into the world. It will return to me one day. I know I am capable of loving and I know now that I am also capable of being loved.

am i a spoon or a dish?

"He looks at me like he's the spoon, & I'm the dish of ice cream."

- Prudie, The Jane Austen Book Club

the wrong one

picture this. you're sitting at a bar. a boy comes along, attracted to you, says words. says how beautiful you are, your smile, your hair, your eyes. says you're the nicest girl he's met. but he doesn't really listen, y'know, he asks but hears nothing but white noise. when you tell him what you're passionate about, he tells you what he's passionate about. does he really want to know what makes your heart beat everyday? or is he just trying to be that perfect guy, just trying for something he wants, the prize, not the girl, not the things that make her happy or sad, the movies she can watch over and over again, the songs that make her bounce in her step as she walks to work or makes her cry at 2pm in the afternoon, her family, where she's been, what makes her tick.

but sometimes, it takes other people to show you what you want. who you want. to push you gently in the right direction of the person who really cares about those little things.

i'm simple as a bee

"There are more wishes than stars."

- Harper Simon

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I am afraid of:

large waves,
bees,
earthquakes,
people walking very fast behind me,
losing someone i love,
whitetail spiders,
drunks on the streets of wellington,
public speaking (but it is getting easier!),
vulnerability,
putting all my eggs in one basket,
bungee jumping.

"If they don't know you personally, don't take it personal."

- Khleo Thomas

To you.

To the boy who gave me a bite sized bruise on my thigh,

I love you & I wish I could be enough.

To the girl who is sick,

Thank you for always making me laugh.

To the girl I hardly see,

I miss you. Let's hang more! 

To my mum,

I wish I got to watch One Born Every Minute with you. I cried watching it tonight, & I knew you'd be doing the same miles away.

To my sister with two babies in her belly,

I need to come visit you! Also I'm planning to go overseas next year but I am afraid to miss out on the twins first year. 

To my sister with one baby in her belly,

We've all noticed you've changed. Come back to us.

To my team leader,

Thanks for believing in me & giving me inspirational pep talks.

To dad,

I miss your optimism and Milo's. I also owe you money but I'm broke and I'm sorry!

Again, to the boy I love driving aimlessly around with,

I feel like you don't know how much I care about you because I care about a lot of people. That's just who I am. You mean more to me than most people I know. 

& I wish you were happy with the way I am. Because I'm happy with the way you are. 

Yes!

"Goodness gracious, I can't seem to stop

Calling you up,

Calling you up just I keep crawling to your arms." 

- Ellie Goulding, Goodness Gracious

my recent life in photos:

kitten is now longer a kitten! gosh she was tiny here. 

went into a shop for shopping. came out inspired. 

snapchat action with my mama at my uncle's 60th. 

dolled up with my friend. nights out at boogie wonderland!

indoor soccer tournament with my lovely & brilliant workmates. 

camp wairoa, le sister & her husband. 

sushi! my favourite. this is in tauranga over christmas. 

this is our backyard. beautiful huh? my dad stands next to two beautiful austrian tourists. pug also included. 

cute pug is cute. 

mount beach is quite possibly one of my favourite places on earth. 

my friends & i played scrumpy hands for the first time. we regret it and can't remember most of the night...

besties :) 

quiz nights at work! 

colour run! so much fun. 

kate & i at the john mayer concert in auckland. he played 'your body is a wonderland'! #happy

ebony & ivory. 

fish & chip nights with this awesome guy. 

jenga with my workmates. more fun than i ever thought i'd have playing jenga. 

workmates are more than that. they're definitely my friends. 

#asian night

Finally watching this movie.

"Enjoy your life, little lady. You've only got one."

- Dallas Buyers Club

truth

"Maybe you have to let go of who you were, to become who you will be." 

- Carrie Bradshaw, Sex & The City

Like Elsa, I think I have to let go. After a long hard week, I've had this weekend to really think about things. What I've been, the flaws I can help, the flaws I can't help, and the things in life that have held me back.

It's time to move forward. 

le film.

movies i must see:

a million ways to die in the west,

the trip to italy,

belle & sebastian,

chef,

sunshine on leith,

the grand budapest hotel,

stories we tell,

inside llewyn davis

my brooklyn,

fantail,

the fault in our stars,

what we do in the shadows.

more to come!