kisses.

i want the kind of kiss where they cross the room with the intention of kissing you, and their hands touch your face before their mouth does and when they finally kiss you, it's fucking perfect.
like this guy who kisses lily collins at the end of M83's claudia lewis music video; like the kiss at the end of here in your arms where they both eat gum and kiss for a million seconds and it seems like they're the only ones in the room.

i know these kisses exist; i've had one once. we sat on the steps of cuba street mall at 2am, drunk teens surrounding us like flies, the music blaring from JJ Murphys, and we were talking and i turned my head to say something and he just kissed me and afterwards i laughed because i was happy but he was nervous because i laughed.

but i want to experience more. i want to have it make my heart beat a thousand miles an hour, i want to think about it for hours, days after, letting it sink in. i want to be nervous around him, but excited, and i want to feel like it's fine to do PDA because this person makes it okay.





just some thoughts.

x J